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Ok fine, ill update.
Hey everyone. Things here are...busy. Its been a hell of a ride since ive gotten back from break. Lets see if i can hit the highlights.
Got my grades back, and while not bad, are not where I wanted them to be. No, I didnt have grandeur illusions of getting straight A's, but I was hoping to do better than I did. And that hasnt been sitting well with me at all. Probably because I studied more for those exams, and worked harder, than I ever have on anything my whole life. When youre used to getting As after not studying at all, not getting those kind of results when you worked your ass off hits kind of hard. Im still not settled with it. And its tough cuz im still missing a grade. My one professor is taking forever to grade the exams. And yet, we still see him at the bars. Alcoholic bastard fuck.
They also hit us REALLY hard with a lot of work right as we got back. I have a memo due monday. And anyone who knows me knows how much I hate these memos. They chip away at my soul and make me feel terrible. And its largely in part to my professor, who ive realized that i hate more than any other living soul on the planet. She teaches us like we're first graders, then grades us like we're Judges. And when i go in and talk to her, to ask her for help because im obviously not doing what she wants, she gives me unclear answers. I asked her about this memo yesterday, on how to phrase something in a motion im writing. She literally, for five minutes, kept going 'well, maybe you could say that...no that wouldnt work....well yeah this is tricky because...well....um....no....what about..." For five minutes straight. Then her answer, after all she is the professor right? "Well, it will all come down to how you word it. But be careful". I wanted to slug her. The nicest thing ive been able to call her is a Nazi Bitch Whore from Hell. She makes me feel like less of a person, i swear. I have two new classes, Property and Constitutional Law. Con law rocks. my teacher is very, VERY, left. Like, she worked for the ACLU for a while. And im front row (fucking alphabetical seating chart), and we talk politics a lot. its a blast.
So yeah, schools been kickin my ass, and has put me in an official 'funk' that I dont seem to be able to shake, which bothers me because, well, things dont usually bother me this much. As a result, ive been sleeping for shit and have no appetite. Like, ever. Which is terrible cuz i love food. Im very pro-food. I dont think ive ever given any indication that im anti food. But anyway, ive lost 20 pounds since december. I dont have 20 pounds to lose!
Ok, i have to go to dinner now apparently, so ill finish updating later with the good stuff. Come on, im not totally doom and gloom. Dont fear, i havnt given up, i just really really want to. Not really. I just wanna get my boat. This whole 'pirate' thing just gets prettier and prettier....talk to all later.